Regrets ...
Today I was thinking I am not so much disappointed about my life at this moment, just the fact that the 10 years before that I really wasted. There was so many little things I could have done during my 30's that I didn't.
Speaking mostly of the horses, I had a wonderful little driving pony that I let sit for most of his life. Ike was fully trained when I got him. I had a cart, I had a harness, I did not have experience with driving. I wish I had looked harder for a trainer to help me with driving. How much fun I missed out driving him!
All I said for all of Madison's life was what a cute little driving horse she would have been. I had the time. I had the experience to start her out. I would have been getting more experience in driving if I had just done it with Ike.
Now where are those horses? I can not even type it. I still have a hard time thinking about it. So much wasted talent and life. Both mine and theirs.
Those are just two of the many examples that is hard to swallow now. Where did the time go? Why didn't I just get up off my ass and doing some of those things? What am I missing out on now that I should just do?
I feel this way on a much smaller scale sometimes. When I sit around all day and don't do anything productive I start feeling that way. Just remember it's never too late! Start living everyday. Enjoy every moment! Do the things you always wanted to do. That's one reason I made my 30 Before 30 list because I worry that I'm not trying hard enough to do the things I want to do. http://myfarmerlife.blogspot.com/search/label/30%20Before%2030 It's heartbreaking what happened to Ike and Madison, but it's not something you could have ever guessed or prevented so don't beat yourself up about it. We always think we have more time, which is why it's important to live every single day like it could be our last. Feel better!
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